Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Throwback Thursday + Mommy Woes

Six years ago, I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. A girl who cried at all times, literally. When it gets warm, or cool perhaps, she would wail. When strangers(to her) visit, the house would be filled with her screams. Her granny seemed to be the only one who knew what she wants. Granny's girl, all the way.
When she got a little bigger, toys would make her cry. That is, when mommy and daddy refuse to buy her more toys. When I switch channels, expect a world war to ensue. A lot of weeping and bawling,too, when its time to eat. A spoonful of food would take about 5 minutes before it gets to be swallowed. 5 freaking minutes! Imagine how long it would take to finish a plate of rice and chicken.
Six years ago
Now, it seemed like mommy is the one crying more. When we watched Toy Story , especially the 3rd one, I was crying, Zay had to fetch some tissue for me. We watched it like, 10 times already because its on repeat mode at the Disney Channel, and yet you would still catch me sobbing. I read a story, which you can read about here, I found myself weeping silently. When we went to the doctor to have Zay's ear infection checked, I was miserable too because she was freaked out when the doctor tried cleaning her ear. When I suspected that someone from school was bullying her, I got teary-eyed while talking to her teacher. When I realized that she is having a hard time dealing with the new school environment, I literally cried myself to sleep. I have been crying a lot lately and its because of my child. Yup, my girl is having some problems at her new school and it makes me soooo sad. :(

Hubby and I have talked it over. I think we have made a wrong decision of choosing her school . We wanted the best for her yet we realized, the best school may not be best for HER. But we are letting her finish the rest of the school year in that school. I think it would be a lot more traumatic if we pull her out and she has to adjust to another school now. What do you think, mommies?

I'm ending this post with a picture of my happy, vibrant girl. We love her totally, to bits. We love her despite of it all. Because of it all. I may not be a perfect mom, but hell, I am trying. I am freaking trying.

17 comments:

  1. I feel you mare,, and I wanted to give you a Vitual hugs.That is the main reason toom why I am having a hard time to decide,if I am going to move to other place,, I have to think a lot, and most especially School.

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    1. Yeah sis. All decision regarding our kids, we need to think a million times. Salamat!:)

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  2. I can't give sound advice about parenting as i am not one, but i would say trust your mommy instincts mare. I pray that your little one would blossom into a bright and loving woman like her mommy ;)

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  3. She is beautiful! I hope that the school year gets better for her. It's hard when you try to make the right decisions but aren't 100% confident in those decisions. It happens to every parent. ((HUGS))

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    1. Thank you ,Whitney. Im so glad I found your site.:)

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  4. Hi Mommy K! Have you tried talking to the teacher about the bully thing? It's also good to tell Zay that if someone's bullying her, she shouldn't fear telling her teacher or you about it so that it won't happen anymore. I know you're a good mom and you try your best to give the best for Zay. I hope things get better as time goes by. God bless!

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    1. Yes, sis. I have told that to her. I have talked to the teacher na din. I am hoping things will get better for my girl. Thanks.:)

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  5. She was beautiful as a baby and even more beautiful as a child. Keep on talking to the teachers at your daughters school. No child should ever be bullied. You're a great mom and I know you'll do what's best for her. Hope you'll have a great weekend.

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    1. Thank you for the kind words, Amanda. I agree. No child should be bullied, ever.

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  6. it makes me angry to think that someone is bullying her :( the teachers can help her adjust and protect her from bullying. youre such a loving mom sis, i hope everything gets better for your baby girl, cute cute pa naman nya sa pic.

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    1. Salamat Shayne. I feel better now. :) I hope so too.

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  7. Everything will be ok, sis. Don't worry. I was like that too when this school year started. I was scared that my daughter won't fit in. Fortunately for us, everything is going smoothly.

    Talk to Zay always para you'll know her daily activities at school. Hindi ka man 24/7 nasa tabi nya, it doesn't make you less of a mom. Kaya mo yan. Cheer up! =)

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    1. Zay is attending a bigger school na kasi sis. A lot different than her pre school. But its getting better. Thanks so much sis. Im feeling better na din :)

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  8. She's so adorable Ms. Kristine! I know how it feels being a mom fight for her daughter. (I have no kids and not married yet.) Followed via bloglovin. ^^

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    1. Thank you ! Im following you too, Maria.:)

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  9. My oldest had a hard time adjusting his first year of school also. He is doing great now though. It's hard when our kids struggle :)

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